summer in the cit-ay

i am officially once again a minneapolis girl. it's nice. i've kind of fallen in love with this city again. not in the way i loved mpls before as a kid, but in a new way. in a way cooler way. right.

i've been inhabiting the mini guest (storage) room at my dad and angies place, going to bed early yet still too late, waking up not quite early enough, slaving away with a steamer all day as a prep stylist at 8th st studio

walking the lake harriet neighborhood pretty much every night while listening to wilco over and over (and over?)


reconnecting with the local music scene


catching up with old friends, making a few new ones




hating life, loving life. it's great to be back. to be somehow so isolated and integrated all at once.

limbo really. 'where in the hell am i going anyway...?'

good question. i've been thinking about that a lot lately. whether it's what i'm going to do for lunch today, what i'm going to be doing after graduation this next spring, to where i'm going to be living when i'm fifty. who are my friends going to be? what kind of house am i going to be living in? what is my life going to look like.

cliché? a little. but i can't deny it or ignore it.

doggy paddling between fear and excitement, i'm figuring shit out. or atleast learning to deal with not being able to figure it out. coping with the idea that we have the potential, risk, opportunity of inumerable lives. not rewind/repeat/replay/redo, but the thought that i could go a million different ways from here, and no path has the same end point. that life is really not so linear.

i can't even decide whether i like the idea of living in one of the numerous overpriced, oversized but gorgeous houses on the lake or scraping by each day in a tiny studio and walking to the nice neighborhood to enjoy their well spent ( ? ) tax dollars. for now, i'll just keep 'playing' with the idea of what i could possibly 'be'. whatever that means exactly.

one thing i have managed to figure out, my yard is going to be filled with daisies. screw mowing and weeding. daisies. little white ones.